Sunday, August 9, 2009

Wait.........wait.......wait....wait..........wait.........

My summer is coming to a close...that's weird, I didn't really feel like it came to an open. This has been the busiest season (in every sense of the phrase) of my life.

The weather has been colder the last few days and it's gotten me thinking about fall. People in the drive thru are already going school shopping. Pumpkin Spice Lattes come out September 1st and my life as I know it right now will come to an end.

I've been lingering on the edge of interns for as long as I possibly can and it seems that come September I won't be able to do that anymore. I will be pushed into a new season. . . and as of today I think I'm finally a little excited about that.

After my two year internship ended I took up a job at my church to finish paying off my fees for that and honestly it's been SO much fun. I've got to be around my favorite people a lot and have gotten to have some pretty great adventures because of it. If that comes at a price of scrubbing toilets then I'm totally fine with that. On top of working at my "real job", helping out with media at my church, and trying to spend time with out of state friends as they've wondered into town I have found myself sleepless and caring a crammed packed schedule.

Thus the excitement for fall comes in. I'm going to get to stop. I could almost cry while typing that. . . really. I haven't gotten to stop for YEARS. I haven't gotten to have a night off, with nothing to do without dropping a responsibility in YEARS. And now I'll get to. I'll get to go home and find myself with a night free. . . without the nagging "you have homework" feeling, without the "where do I need to be next?" feeling. . . it's going to be awesome, and I'm just realizing this today.

God has told me this is going to be a rest and wait season.


I'm sure they'll be days when I feel lonely, unneeded, sad. . . but I'm going to have a burden lifted off of my shoulders and I'm finally going to get time to sit and process all that has happened over the past few months. Time to pray. Time to be alone. Time to listen. Time to study. Time to catch up. Time to strengthen relationships I've been neglecting.
It might suck sometimes. . . but I'm excited.